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DISCLAIMER : DO NOT READ THIS. And take me seriously when I warn you.
Someone told me at one point of time, ‘Always indulge in what you love the most, because when in a state of crisis it is that passion that keeps you solvent’…
I have been religiously practicing this philosophy for a long time now. And this philosophy has helped me in ways incredible and in ways unfathomable.
The state of crisis today is that of apathy and sloth. But now has come a time when my passion, if ever there was one, is no longer alive. It no longer rekindles the flame. It no longer gives me that push to do something. To do something worthwhile (read: worthless for the rest of the world).
Yeah , today words fail me and I (most miserably) fail them. (It’s entirely mutual, for a change).
There is a yawning void staring at me. Not the void that would make you feel nostalgic or emotional or any of those things, but the void that will make you feel listless. Yes, listless. It’s one crazy void.
And it’s not even that I don’t feel like doing anything, I want to do something (To shove off this inactivity); and in fact there IS a lot to do. I am sure there is some surge simmering inside .But what? I do not know (idk)*. And even if I had known , it would have been a ‘to do or not to do’ situation..
Idk what I am blabbering at this moment. I am just too convoluted,…with what? idk. :D. But I cannot care less. There are no thoughts and whatever some there were have all disappeared into thin air. Now who would give me company in this languid state? idk…
I have grown peevishly indolent, blatantly ignorant and perpetually insolent (WHAT a shameful attempt to rhyme)… about the world around me, including me. You do, you do not do, I do, I do not do…who cares??? Dayum Life*! It’s so good to be nonexistent. In fact, I am the nonexistent.
PS: You cannot blame me for this post, Courtesy : the disclaimer. And ,Hats off to you if you managed to come this far.
*PPS : idk = I don’t know ; Dayum = Damn (I just learnt these slangs from someone. :D)
PPPS = I wrote this in one (listless) hour. Before posting this I had typed my other account’s password for blogger password! For a moment I was like-“Dayum! idk my password!”
Phewww…Anyway,so much for a listless talk.
Comments
Waaaaaasssaup?
I know words of wisdom fail at times of crisis, but you're strong and you know it, so keep your feet to the ground and don't lose hope. This too shall pass.
Lots of love. Always!
I am not going to say...brilliant post..brilliant read etc etc etc..because...it is never pretty to know about someone that he/she is feeling listless or feeling void..
That said..this situation is not so bad to be in. I would say...it is bliss sometimes..to be non-existent. I say, 'Don't Force it'. Don't try to come out of it. The harder you may try..the more listless..you may become..Let it move forward in its own momentum..Like all things...it has to go too..
But, off course..ydnh to listen to me.. :)
May be..Talking to someone..who listens well...will ease the situation a bit...i.e if you want the situation to ease...till then..relish it. :)
Smile. Always :)
"The sensation of listlessness, weariness, stupidity, this inabiltity to sit down and do anything,…this feeling that everything around the house is dull and insipid when it never was before…"
I copied these lines because it reflected exactly my state at some weary "dayum" moments!
It's so wonderfully strange that we tend to write when we are most disturbed and restless! Fall in it and get burnt and then rise up! It has it's own beauty!
Love and regards dear! Again you gave me something which evince my "shadow"! Sweet disturbances!
how i did it IDK :) he he
dont worry keep the faith things will happen when they have to happen simple :)
Bikram's
IDK, what I am doing from so many days, may be, flowing with the current or the current sweeps me. Total loss of everything. I have to find an apartment, entire day I search online and IDK why I cancel the appointment. Totally understand what you feel.
The poetry effect was good:)
Been there too many dayumm times in my life and I refer to this state of mind and body as my 'sluggy uggy' episodes :D Good news is that it's a temporary state.
RX: Time, patience, a good ear if needed, exercise, tons of H20 <- - it has done wonders for me in the past, seriously! If all else fails or doesn't fail, eat chocolate - ALWAYS! :D
Hope this brought a few smiles your way, dear Stuti :) Thinking of you and sending you lots of love and hugs, my dear ♥
I think..you fell just short of writing a book here again...Why..oh Why?
You should have written a book here too...you know..we love reading your books. :)
Also take Fionas advice, lots and lots of chocolate (Health warning:- must be eaten in moderation ;o)
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Its now a day later since your post so I hope you awoke to a new day with a giant sparkle.
Best wishes. Paul :)
@Kunal: Thanks,I like listening to Professors ;) :P :D...and I guess you should be knowing that I am not evading(not even trying to evade) this state :D
@Rahul: so sweet of you..and that blog of yours is side splitting at times,l sure revisit it,thanks :)
Jane Austin has been my fav!!! and I remember that quote..I had loved Emma even when I read it as a kid :D
thanks dear, your comments instantly strike a chord:)
and yes 'splurge'I do, but with what..dayumm idk :D..(I can't do with my indolence, money I don't have :D)
@Bikram : thanks a lot:)
thanks for understanding the state..I hope you bounce back to your normal self soon,thanks :)
@Fiona : I am quite pleasantly surprised that you could find humour in a listless writing :):) thanks a lot!:)...
And chocolates.....aahhh..well you shouldn't have advised me this AT ALL... :D My whole slimming regime will now go for a toss :( ....because there is 'control' in my dict :D
As for the chocolates, I will try to stick to your health warning :D, thanks:)
@Ashok: i would take that as a compliment :) thanks for dropping by :)
But m grateful and surprised that you found this listless post a nice read :)thanks!
in sooth i know not why i am so sad.....it wearies me, you say it wearies you....
but i guess you are not sad...you are just non-existent....:)
@Shoaib : thanks, and thanks for dropping by :)
It's your mind recharging - let it be :)
The listless hour sure will pass!
Still, take care.
You know I love you.:*
*Tight hug*
So come back with a great post :D Cause when words fail, when they start coming, they come even better :)
@Raj: I hope to find that breeze soon:)
@Crystal: thanks again :)
@Philo: i wish every word you said there is true! :)
Dayum, tell me you agree :P
@Sourav: haha, may be who knows! :D
@A guilty conscience: I am glad your mind has strengthened after this, thanks a lot for dropping by. I will be looking forward to more visits:)
@Bengts : thanks, and thanks for coming here!
Thanks for dropping by.
Anyway, you cannot be listless (a proof), I read your comments at Princess Fiona's post, I was speechless! You are the best of you!
yes i did managed to come to the line that said the same!
hmm...frankly speaking couldn't understand what is this post about and kept searching for this very reason throughout..its only in the last few lines that i got the hang of things!"a listless void topic"
clever clever writing..very gud orator u must be:):)
Rohit
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@Rohit:i would take that as a compliment :)
@Philo: I wouldn't keep you waiting for too long, thanks so much :)
@Crystal: idk the answer to that question, infact i have never known that :D...thanks for the concern :)
Ah!!! forget what I have just blabbered. I am sleepy. :(
@Kumar ~ Sleepy or not, that was FANTASTIC! Our gorgeous grain of sand will get back on track soon :) :)
@Fiona: have to admit no:)...its a pleasure to see your comments here:)
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